One Foot in Front of the Other

I saw my neighbor the other morning as I was putting the garbage out.  He inquired how I was doing and I smiled and told him all you can do is put one foot in front of the other and go on.  You know this is probably one of the hardest things I have ever had to deal with as an adult.  I have had numerous times when I thought, I just can't believe this is happening to me.  But, this actually takes the cake.  I have spent the better part of my weekend in bed.  Not because I didn't feel well or was tired, but because I felt that I needed to stay close to my husband.  As I watch him sleeping in can see the bones of his arms.  He has lost so much weight since all of this began.  I am so worried I don't know what to do.  Tonight he was on his way back from eating dinner, he fell.  His blood pressure has been very low.  His nose is bleeding a sign of low platelets.  He has no energy and is so weak.  Tonight he told me he was scared.  "Me too," was all I could say.  Scared doesn't even begin to tell how I feel.  I feel helpless and alone.  I know that there are many people who care about me, but the one person who has been a constant in my life is so sick and there is nothing I can do to make it better.  Nothing.

Cancer is a thief that comes in and steals everything from you.  You hopes, dreams, and even you life.  I know my other blogs have been lengthy but this is going to be short.  For those of you who read this know that you can never love someone enough.  Take time to let them know how you feel.  Don't wait for times like this.  Make each day count.  Forget about all the little stuff and focus on the one constant your feelings for your family and friends.  Let them know just how important they are to you each and every day.  This is the best way to put one foot in front of the other and it is they way I believe we are supposed to live.  It's never too late.  Love one another like there is no tomorrow.